Thursday, 12 February 2015
02:52
a nightmare to begin with. a dream to end with. never thought that things would end up this way. yes I regretted but at the same time I hope he will find someone better than me, more understanding than me. sorry that I dontknow how to make life better for you, guess I'm really not cut out to be a girlfriend. I'm probably better to be a simple girl alone. Everything's just as bad today, waking up to start school late, missing buses when I was on the way home, friendship screwing over and over and now this relationship hands down.
staying up a day to reflect on my own. wanting to do my project, open my laptop, press the on button, start doing my project, doing halfway, tears flow down thinking what to do, stop my tears, do my work, typing the word, tears flow down again, decides not to do anymore, shutdown my laptop.
nothing's going my way. I had a chance to talk to him, but I decided for him to be happy again, not a nightmare staying on with this horrible person me. He should have someone better. Doing what I could not have done, providing the best for him. I'll be happy to see you happy.
As for my life, I'll just do whatever I need to do to get off this poly, to start working, to live happy. I just want to be happy, that's my goal and aspiration. To empty my thoughts, to love myself more, to keep myself motivated.
Sorries for the last time, goodbye.
& I'm being random.
