Tuesday, 23 December 2014
18:11
I'm always that one who gets influence by peoples every action very words. Once a thing goes through my mind, I either change this or that. What I mean was when people say something, I get affected by it. Be it about a person or a thing. You don't eat after midnight, fine yes I'm gonna remember that for the rest of my life. And if I see you eat or you told me that you ate, hoho you told a lie to me and I'm gonna break off with you. I mean for real, and I'm not kidding. Right now at this moment, I am fucking pissed with you. You shouldn't have come, into my life. There's so much people out there and I chose you. Keep reflecting on why the fuck I did it. You weren't even on my dream guy list oh gawd.
And yes my problem. Fuck myself, see and see too much guys just why did I do it my gawd. Well, I'm pretty stupid hahaha. I was so immersed with you that I forgot we didn't even date. Until this day, I still dontknow you good enough. (I cross my heart) And no, I didn't write this out cause I'm feeling unhappy or angry. It's partly because had enough to put up with, just wanna let it out in some ways. You think you have your problems so do I. I did so much (okay maybe to you it's nothing) and it didn't seem like you appreciated it. Not say in terms of things, but also gestures. I hope you forget all of it, cause I can't bother remembering it anyway.
I really rather you not come, like really. (from my heart) If I could, I would turn time and not have met you. Yes, you were a great guy, but then I don't think you suit me that well. Different point of views, I'm sure that hasn't been solve. Not giving up, and insisted in our own ways. Someday, I'm sure you will be tired of this relationship too huh.
I am not sure if I'm wasting my time being with you or you're wasting your time with me. My uncles and aunties and grandma said you were a really nice guy. But I guess they haven't seen the all of you yet hahahah joke. Somehow I really hate you being not you. I felt you changed, I felt you're no longer you. I felt real distant.
I couldn't find out what's on your mind sometimes. I feel you're slowly being not the guy I first fell for anymore. I don't wanna fight with you and I couldn't careless. I do like envying other people, well you can scold me for that, even envying couples in drama hahahah joke. If I had a choice to go back to the scene when you once asked me to be your girlfriend, I would have said no.
& I'm being random.
