Tuesday, 6 May 2014
23:52
so I just ate my own words. what the fuck am I suppose to do now. can I really not do this anymore. I'm getting drained every single day. my body is tired, my mind is tired, so is my heart. I feel I've no more energy to play on. Just slowly dying inside, don't watch me. Maybe next time I should just shut up and not say anything, it sucks to see people upset because of me, I hate that feeling. I thought everything was going well, but well I guess not. I'm pretty much done. It's okay, one word from you, I'll be gone. it's just that simple. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore and I really cannot continue living in this horrible mystical world.
how am I suppose to understand my fucking self. I'm screwed okay. Just couldn't get what my mind is thinking some times. I hate myself like really really very much. Let me feel some pain please. I need to kill my inner soul to find what I really want. that process of dying quietly, I would love that.
it's tough, I could barely survive anymore. I'm exhausted from everything I've done. I'm not superhuman.
& I'm being random.
