Just don't and never. It sucks.
It's been long since I written my blog.. Here's it! As you can see from the heading, the same old stuff again.. When can I ever have happy moments? Never thought going through poly can be depressing as well.
Never thought that my life would come this far. Hey this guy is cute, zomg he's so hott, things like this ain't going anywhere.
JUST STOP IT DENA, IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON. Really need to wake up, just what the hell I want? It feels like I've no direction in life... My habit of falling for guys is just too fast. I think too much. sigh.
hmm ways to make my life happier? Music is the only source leh how ah? HAHAHAHAH guess it's alright after all,
dont run away, let it all out tonight
open up everything will be alright
more cheerful days coming along? *crossed my fingers* i hope so!
Here's what I'm gonna do
I'll build up a wall against you, I'll try not to interact with you
No texting, just plainly nothing.
Distancing is the best cure for me. If you felt it, please help. See me? Avoid. thanks
It's gonna hurt I know, what am I suppose to do then? I know if I let it go on, some day I might really just die. Why die? Perhaps you dontknow how many sleepless night, cries and scars I've been going through. No one knows whats the real me, neither do you. You know me, not my story. Wanna judge? Go ahead, I'm done. Stop asking if I'm okay, when you know I'm not okay. I said yes, I'm fine. For the sake of explaining all the bullshits, it's really sick and tiring.
So many things to worry about.. Just why am I softhearted? I don't understand myself.
I want to forget you. throw away all the memories we had, don't even know I would even have feelings for you in the first place. I know I suck, I know I will never have you, not even one fucking chance, so yeah hope everything fades today.
Current state: Upset :(
